From this very place Its where the memories are held
Profile N.FINA facebook/tumblr/formspring/twitter Not going to do what people like just because they want me to because I will never be happy that way. This place,is where everything is said. Exits Bow Wow. Chris Brown FC. Credits ©Glamouresque.	Friday, March 16, 2012 Shattered and lost.i dont even know what am i supposed to do.sigh i really miss you but i dont expect to meet you everytime but just by looking at how our situation,i would rather just keep quiet. Tuesday, February 14, 2012 Is this retribution? I dont know if this is a retribution for what i have done in the past but it is definitely hurting me so much right now.i feel like a failure.well ive got some friend whom always goes to concert and had not really cared about studies.well the person is happy now.and as for me,i was stressing myself out about future and look where i end up now.the last place i want to be for an education but i dint have a choice.i keep telling myself that this will end in no time.but it has not even started yet.im scared and i am very scared about what the future has for me.it had been a hell of a ride for me for the past month and i dont knownif i can carry on anymore.putting up a strong front is getting too tiring.whats the point if crying now.i havent met my close exclassmates simply because i have been avoiding them.i have been trying to avoid people.this feels like a nightmare that is not going to end for the next two years.this hurts so bad that everytime when im alone or when i look at my parents,i cant help to think and blame myself for everything that have happen.i dont care about anything else in the world right now but just the people whom i love and the ones whom had been there for me.i dont need anything else to hurt ir bring me down because this is definitely the lowest point in my life.is this a new beginning for me or a nightmare but what i know is that the old Nurul Syarafina is not going to exist anymore.i really feel that i have changed.i like being alone most of the times.i have expectations of myself and if some people are telling me on what to do,you have no rights.like ive said,i dont need anything else to bring me down right now.yes,i dont deserve anything for the next two years unless i earn it.for every waking day that i pass,i cant stop blaming myself.i hate myself and no one have any idea of what im feeling right now.not now,not ever. Saturday, January 28, 2012 Normal? Truth to be told,i miss you but i dont know what to do.i must admit that there is not a day that i go on without you passing my mind.sigh when i look at my friends,they do let my hair down and have fun but deep inside,wished you would drop a text to ask how im doing.it hurts having to know that when i wake up everyday,its the same thing.thats why i prefer to make myself busy so it help to make my mind iff things.like i had said before,i miss you.hope youre doing good.
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay